Is it worth it?

I have been blogging since Feb 2019 and it appears not to have made a difference. Granted it could be I am not "advertising" yet at...

Yes, I Lied

Those words may not sound like a big issue for many people. For me, however, I do not lie. It i said by whoever "they" are that there is...

You Heard Me !

I am not sure what that title means to you, but i find most people listen but do not hear. It is a skill many are lacking. This does not...

Cutting and EMDR

I am so depressed and frustrated. I was willing to try EMDR. Willing and afraid, but it is not possible because i cut. While I...

Happy Independence Day

Happy Day to all my readers. I have been thinking about this day and what it means to me. Or,what i wish it could mean to me. Do not...

Is this the only way?

I am back after a break when i tried medication for my depression. It did not help and only made me more numb and unable to write. But,...

Time to Play

I think it is time to post a postive blog. This is not easy as i am struggling and all i want to do is hide. We need to have time to...

Sitting with Feelings

I do not know how you feel about this advice, but as for me i can throw this advice out the window. There is no way i can sit with my...

Take Back You r Power

I am not sure how to interrupt this advice. Take back my power? What power? Are they referring to the power that was taken from me...

Needing People

This is going to be a short blog as i feel awful and have no desire to write. I am ready to cry. I woke up this morning (2 days ago) and...

Behind The Mask

Yes, I am a hider. I hide behind a smile mask all day at work when I am in the public eye. When i get home I am exhausted. I can not...

Emergency Kit

I have read about emergency kits, but never seriously considering making one for myself. I am thinking about it now. For me it would be...

Flashbacks

I am sure each of us survivors has their own type of flashback. For me they are emotional ones. I don't see images. I feel. It is as if...

Friends and Lovers

I have found this port very difficult to write. I end up crying while writing and each time I do a rewrite. It is not the friend's ...

Support-Hard to Ask for

In my last blog i touched on my difficulty in finding the support i need. Or, let me put it another way. Support I am afraid to ask for. ...

Is it My Fault?

I am addressing this issue today as I have and still do struggle with it. Fault. It does not matter if the logical part of me knows it...

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